Asher are you gonna be a Gor Gor soon?

This week has been rather uncertain for me. Feelings are mixed. Today marks the 39th day of my cycle. I am absolutely not sure what is happening. There can only be 2 reasons. One, my cycle has gone haywire (again). In August last year, the aunty decided to take a longer break than usual and visited me at the 38th day. This is why I do not want to overly expect too much. Second, Asher is gonna be a Gor Gor. Unsure unsure unsure. "Go do a test!!!" - You may say. Yes, I will but not yet. I will be patient and wait. Who knows, the aunty might decide to take a long break again this time? I do not want to be disappointed again. So I will wait just a couple more days. Anyway, we have planned to go Bali next Tuesday. So I will definitely do the test by Monday. If I see 2 lines, i shall forfeit my Bali trip and say bye to my $88 air ticket and $150 hotel and bye to hubby too, who will join the rest of TTL to their Bali getaway. If I see 1 line, I will bring lots of pads...and will be super sian in Bali. No water sports... no massages.. So Day 39, hopefully you pass by quickly without anything too exciting. Day 40, ditto and maybe I will be tempted to use the kit. Day 41, ditto if I didn't get tempted on Day 40 to use the kit. Day 42, ditto if I didn't get tempted on Day 40 and 41 to use the kit. Day 43, going Bali or not?