The Preliminary Report

Dear Asher,

Last Friday evening, your Daddy told me the hospital had sent the preliminary report to him. As Daddy was still in office, I told him to send to me. I opened up the email attachment & began reading. As I read each word, my heart broke. Although we already knew you had to be cut open for the autopsy to be done, reading the report just made the reality comes alive. Dear Asher, we know you do not feel the pain but it is just difficult to accept that you had to leave the earth this way. Daddy said he felt like shit when he reads the report.. I hesitated to scroll down the pages each time. I found it hard to digest. The more I read, the wilder my imagination ran...thinking how you are being cut opened. We do not understand. Your report states you are healthy, normal. Why then did such a thing happen to you?

Mummy is worried that you are lonely in heaven, with no friends. Daddy says maybe you met your uncle/auntie, Grand Auntie Grace's child. Dear Asher, we miss you so much everyday. We love you, our dear boy, our most precious angel, our dear son.