Goodbye Asher, Daddy & Mummy will see you in Heaven.

Dearest precious Baby Asher,

Never did Mummy expect that my next blog entry to you will be a goodbye to you. I din even get a chance to welcome you! Baby Asher, your presence in this world may be short - 26th October 2011 2159hrs to 29th October 2011 2305hrs, but do you know that it has brought so so so much joy to us? Mummy can still remember how you first looked like when you were born & I cuddled you on my chest, at the operating theatre. Daddy was just next to us, taking our 1st shot together.

Baby Asher, Daddy & Mummy knows you are a very smart boy! You can suckle so well already even though you were barely a few hours old. Daddy says you have Mummy's mouth & when you cry, tears come out from your eyes. He said you are just like Mummy, lots of tears when you cry. You have Daddy's hair, black & curly! But Daddy rebonded his so his is straight. Maybe when you grow up, you will need Uncle Aaron's help to rebond too! Haha. And your eyes & nose, Grandma (mummy's mum) said she can see your nose resembles Daddy! I agree too.. It's big! Your eyes are always so alert, looking around, trying to see what's around you. And they are always so watery & bright! Daddy & Mummy will never forget how alert you are even as a day old boy.

Baby Asher, Daddy, Mummy, Grandpa, Grandmas, your uncles & aunties do not know why you had left us. We are hurt, definitely hurt that we can't see you grow up. You are not even supposed to be due yet!!! It was supposed to be 4 November!!! Why Asher? Why did you come & leave so fast? We haven got enough of you, we never will! We din even had a chance to take a family photo together, we thought we still have many chances... But no, 73 hrs was what you gave us. You din even get to sit on the car that Daddy chose especially so that you will feel comfortable in. You din even get a chance to sleep in your bed that we chose especially for you. You din even get a chance to wear all the clothes that we selected for you, those which you will look good in. You din even get a chance to play the mobile & side bumper that Daddy bought for you!!! You din even get the chance to step into the house that Daddy & Mummy cleaned up & the room that we decorated for you. And you din even get a chance to see the stickers that Daddy had ordered online for you!! All the things that we had done, bought for you since the day we know you are coming, you din get a chance to see it! We don't know God had taken you away from us. We are upset, angry, disappointed despite prayers... But Asher, we wanna continue to trust in God that you are in safe hands. Daddy & Mummy will see you in heaven.. Please be patient & wait for us. We are sorry that you are there alone now. But rest assured, Daddy & Mummy will join you one day.

Baby Asher, Daddy & Mummy loves you. Goodbye & see you again.